and here I am..

TA DAAAA.

happy birthday to myself long time ago!

let's seee what happened since i last posted.

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i can't remember. as usual.

Okay i had fabulous presents, $300 in cash and a kpop night ticket(!!)..

And finally.

something unexpected happened.

FULL EXEMPTION!

which fulfils yet another wish of mine.

but nah, im not happy with full exemption cause i don't deserve it. my results aren't that great either. the comments the teachers gave.. first time i got negative comments. and it's comments that are not justified too. so it pissed me off. i'm fine with teachers saying "amanda should try to concentrate more in class to get better results in her end of years" than to say "amanda shouldn't let her grades drop even if she has no intention of taking the subject next year"

do i look like the kind of person to not study for a subject just because i don't wanna take it? gosh. seriously regret telling her any shit.

results wise.. people judge too easily. sure, i got full exemption, but it doesnt mean that i topped the class, seriously -_- i did pretty badly, on the contrary. the A1s i got were all borderline ones, and the only one worth mentioning is lang arts, which i topped the level for again. Still, people don't realise that my sciences dropped alot simply because 'she got full exemption'.

argh$#^@$*^*

another annoying thing. i INNOCENTLY, WITH A PURE INTENT, WITH ZERO INTENT OF SUANNING PEOPLE, told people to jiayou as a form of encouragement, and the first thing they can think of is, "wah don't suan me just because you have full exemption lah". I mean seriously, i can't even say good luck, jiayou, all the best now? What rubbish.

and shaun obviously got results a zillion times better than mine. all you guys could say was "aiya but you got full exemption!" HELLO ARE YOU GUYS STILL OKAY? GPA is the most inaccurate measure of a student's ability, imo. they should look at overall marks instead zzz.

okayyyyy.

whatever it is, i'll live with it in the end.

Now's the time to FIND SOMETHING TO DO and not rot at home for the next two weeks. I'm open to ideas. for now, there's swimming, manga, anime, and sleep -_-

okay. zai jian.

Desperation.

Dear who ever is watching over me,

I HAVE NO WISH TO FAIL MATHS.

Please grant me an A1 for my maths test tomorrow T_T

I have worked hard for it. I think.

PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

Amen.

One month from now.

Today was tiring.

4 consecutive tests, 3 science 1 math.

Brain fried. Literally.

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I don't know why we can't have just one successful choir outing.


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argh.

nevermind. clique outing suits me fine too.



my mood got ruined! ):

but tmr's ndp so i think my mood will be a little better.

hmm.

The Devil does exist.

AMANDAＣＨＡＮISＰＲＯＣＲＡＳＴＩＮＡＴＩＮＧTOOＭＵＣＨ！

argh.

I spent so much time on the handover gift but it's not even that nice ): it's meaningful IF he gets the meaning behind the words.. otherwise, it'd just be a waste. JOEL PLEASE BE SMART ENOUGH! :D

this is what i have to finish today:

The Right Word Pg. 7-13

Read Newsweek! <3

Lang arts essay? (maybe not)

HANDOVER GIFT -.-

revise chemchemchem.

Yeap! there're like, 4 tests next week.

1. chinese reading test - monday

2. bio test (human repro, genetics, variation) - tues/thurs

3. chem (organic chem) - friday

4. chem spa - tentative

I thought physics spa was relatively easy since i totally had too much time and even fell asleep during the test. Let's hope my result reflects my confidence.

I got accepted into OSS! And I did my first translation assignment on thursday :D I'm really happy yaknow, it's damn cool to do things like this. I want to be a good translator in the future :>

anway, i've decided to join the senior choir. I was hesitant at first, because I don't know if i want to continue in the same cca for like, 11 years when my future wont be anything music related. But then I realise it doesn't necessarily have to be. Curriculum is already hectic enough, my cca ought to be a place where i find some peace and enjoy myself right?

I still like music a lot. And I like singing a lot too. So i'm just going to ignore other problems like *some* people hating me in the choir and stay in there. I'll learn to get over things like this. I'll survive :D

Actually, it's really after Shaoxing that I made up my mind. I just know i'll regret my decision if I really left choir. far too many memories in my 4 years here. good ones, bad ones, we've all weathered it as a choir. And this's also the place where I matured, the place that allowed me to grow and gain so much confidence. to the extent that i'm not scared of going on stage now, it's more excitement than anxiety.

Yeap. I'll grow even more the next two years. In the mean time, no relationships allowed! FOCUS ON GROWING UP FIRST YOU DUMMY.

Amanda is awesome :D