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I really wish people would just believe me when I say i'm gonna fail.

I know I didn't used to mean it literally. Failing used to be just not getting A, but it's different now. I'm in JC, and things just got that much harder, and me saying 'I'm gonna fail' really means I'm gonna fail. I know how I did, I won't even bother exaggerating since there's you can't fail beyond failing.

I don't need people to tell me, "Stop saying you're gonna fail, it's annoying" nor do I need people to "zzzz" me. It's fine if they don't believe me, but those who do say such things need to be responsible for what they say. I'm sick of people saying those irresponsible stuff. Like they know how well or how badly I'm doing. Like they know better than the person taking the test. I'm tired of people saying I'm annoying because I tweet about how i'm really motivated, and people saying I'm annoying because I tweet about how I'm gonna fail. I can't go either ways without people saying shit about me huh? Please unfollow me if I annoy you. Or I'll remove you myself just so I don't annoy you any further.

For the billionth time, I'm not a pessimist. I'm just a realist. I'm not gonna jump around and say WOOHOO EVERYTHING'S GONNA BE FINE when I know I did badly. That's just dumb.

Be a little more sensitive, people.

DAMMIT THERE IS NOTHING TO DO ZZZZZ.

I've been translating so much I think it'll last them till next year -_-

I'm so bored I think i'm going crazy.

But somehow, I just don't feel like touching my GP research cause imma slacker ^^

N.KOREA AND CHINA ARE FUCKTARDS!

Will I get into trouble for saying that?

okay U.S. is just as bad, they're getting so ready for 'retaliation' that it feels like they actually want the war gosh. and singapore just had to 'URGE' both Koreas to practice 'UTMOST RESTRAIN'. seriously, what use is there?

Yea i'm just complaining because i'm bored. It's not like I can do a better job. Should I take back the words in red?

Hmm..

Nah, I don't like N.Korea.

okay I should just edit it a little.

done!

Sigh, wish some secret group that fights for justice can just invade N.Korea and kill off all the important people and set the people in N.Korea free. buh.

greed

[edit] decided to delete this post after a good night's sleep. thanks for the encouraging smses guys and girls. [/edit]

and here I am..

TA DAAAA.

happy birthday to myself long time ago!

let's seee what happened since i last posted.

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i can't remember. as usual.

Okay i had fabulous presents, $300 in cash and a kpop night ticket(!!)..

And finally.

something unexpected happened.

FULL EXEMPTION!

which fulfils yet another wish of mine.

but nah, im not happy with full exemption cause i don't deserve it. my results aren't that great either. the comments the teachers gave.. first time i got negative comments. and it's comments that are not justified too. so it pissed me off. i'm fine with teachers saying "amanda should try to concentrate more in class to get better results in her end of years" than to say "amanda shouldn't let her grades drop even if she has no intention of taking the subject next year"

do i look like the kind of person to not study for a subject just because i don't wanna take it? gosh. seriously regret telling her any shit.

results wise.. people judge too easily. sure, i got full exemption, but it doesnt mean that i topped the class, seriously -_- i did pretty badly, on the contrary. the A1s i got were all borderline ones, and the only one worth mentioning is lang arts, which i topped the level for again. Still, people don't realise that my sciences dropped alot simply because 'she got full exemption'.

argh$#^@$*^*

another annoying thing. i INNOCENTLY, WITH A PURE INTENT, WITH ZERO INTENT OF SUANNING PEOPLE, told people to jiayou as a form of encouragement, and the first thing they can think of is, "wah don't suan me just because you have full exemption lah". I mean seriously, i can't even say good luck, jiayou, all the best now? What rubbish.

and shaun obviously got results a zillion times better than mine. all you guys could say was "aiya but you got full exemption!" HELLO ARE YOU GUYS STILL OKAY? GPA is the most inaccurate measure of a student's ability, imo. they should look at overall marks instead zzz.

okayyyyy.

whatever it is, i'll live with it in the end.

Now's the time to FIND SOMETHING TO DO and not rot at home for the next two weeks. I'm open to ideas. for now, there's swimming, manga, anime, and sleep -_-

okay. zai jian.