Happiness.

I'll return every single thing you ever gave me.

OH YEA, DID I MENTION I AM REALLY MOTIVATED? OH YES I AM ♥

I've decided.

If my friends aren't honest enough to speak frankly with me, then it's not worth the time and effort to worry about what they think of me. Especially if they're just gonna give me the cold shoulder without reason. If they've a reason for it, tell me. If not, i'm not gonna torture myself thinking what I did wrong.

I really don't have the time for that this year.

So save me the drama, I'll entertain you 2 years later.

Will I?

School's starting tomorrow.

I'll officially be a JC student.

In less than 2 years time i'll be taking my As.

Am I ready for what's to come?

Nope, definitely not.

I've been slacking too much and worrying too little throughout the 2 months break and frankly speaking, I'm very, very, very unprepared (mentally). I can't even begin to imagine how tough it'd actually be, all i know is I'll have to read (and write) a lot more now. Like how my sister is.

argh.

I'm always doing the same things she does, just not as good. There isn't one thing that I've done that isn't partly influenced by her. She has too much of a presence in my life it sucks. I don't want to live in the shadows forever.

But i'll have to start learning from her if I do want to get a scholarship T__T I fear for my future.

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And i'm extremely disappointed that that person thought that about me.

Say what?

I didn't think the day I'd feel this way would ever come, so now that it's here...

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I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.

and i can't tell anyone i usually talk to cause it's awkward like shit. sigh.

anyway. ytd ytd was rvcs chalet. it was quite fun, playing monopoly deal and daidi and drinking.. funny/irritating/annoying/weird things happened and it was all because of those drunkards. Sigh.

POOL WAS FUN.. though I'm still really lousy at it. played till it was time to rush to my aunt's house for newyear countdown!

Didn't have dinner so ate lots of fingerfood that my aunt prepared.

drank again, much more than chalet but still not enough to make me dizzy ):

I miss that feeling already, when did my alcohol tolerance go so high zzz.

played slapjack! it was so much funner than the chalet one cause my cousin's girlfriend is super slow and we can't help but laugh laugh laugh at her hahahaha she's such a nice girl too!

made so much noise we couldn't help but worry that police might be called in -_-

played till 4+? then went out with my cousins to mount faber.

sat around, talked a little, enjoy the scenery, watched couples make out, laugh at stupid things, went back to my aunts house at 6+ and spent the night there!

Woke up at 1+pm and went to JP! for lunch at newyork new york.

fabulous lunch. just thinking of it makes me hungry.

but I was so full after that I decided to skip dinner zzz

It's fattening, but i really wouldn't mind eating there everyday heeheeeee.

was msg cow throughout the day.. and was supposed to go play pool with him tmr but ended up cancelling it since everyone's broke ): and there's class chalet tmr! If we went, i think we'll end up going there at 7+pm zzz.

why am i blogging so much after months of not blogging? Feels so weird.

I AM VERY HAPPY NOW! <3