Strip me down to nothingness.

My term as the president of RVC has ended.

It started out rough. I had no idea how to control the choir, and I was so emotional back then too. So critical of others and so easily defeated by tiny things. Yea, I was really weak back then. It made me hate being a president alot cause I thought it prevented me from being a normal, committed choir member. How wrong I was.

I always thought my first priority would be to get the discipline on track, and that being strict and really stern with them would make them learn. I started out ending every practice with scoldings, and it didn't really show much result except that it stressed me out alot since i really hate scolding people. I thought it was the only way to make choir good. How wrong I was.

I doubted my committee when I first stepped up. I didn't, and couldn't trust them. We were all weak. And I was frustrated because I wasn't strong enough to do anything to change that. I resented my weakness. But it only made me feel more drained.

And yet, somehow, along the way, I slowly changed. I don't know how, don't know when, don't know why, I became less uptight and (slightly) more easygoing. I gave in to the fact that not everything's gonna turn out the way I want them to, and all I could do was to learn to expect the unexpected.

Obviously it wouldn't have been possible without a certain level of confidence. But I want all of you to know, confidence isn't something inborn. Well, it MIGHT be, but it can be cultivated to, if you so dearly wish for it.

First, you learn to see everyone on equal grounds. You're not superior or inferior to anyone. Second, Trust in your own abilities and your judgements. You can't expect anyone to listen to you if you don't trust what you're doing. Third, Be egoistical. You're the president, it's fine to boast about it once in awhile. But of course, it gets irritating if you really BELIEVE this, though i think it's fine if you meant it in a joking manner. like, i've always been saying, AMANDA ROCKS RIGHTTTTTTTT? :D Fourth, be nice! shower your members with care and concern, they'll learn to love you back too ^^

Confidence is crucial.

There were times when I found myself all alone while my other friends were having fun with each other. I felt really sad, but it really can't be helped. When there are responsibilities to uphold and things to deal with, i wasn't able to just stay with my clique and have fun. Although it does distant me from them, I still took pride in being a president.

I learnt a lot in my term of office, and I hope Joel would too. I hope he'd create his own legacy and leave behind even sweeter memories for the choir. I hope for the committee to work well together, set aside their differences and unite towards one common goal. I hope they'd never forget the feelings of joy when we received out Gold IV and Gold II, and always remember to never be complacent. Remember Ms Tham's words.

I thank everyone in choir, for making my term as a President such an enriching one. As cliche as it is, it'd never be the same without anyone of you. My committee, my batchmates, I hope I've been at least a decent leader that you guys could trust.

Outgoing Committee:

President: Amanda

Vice Pres: Xinyi, Junjie

Treasurer: Vanessa

Secretary: Amelia

SCs: Calvin, Pekkhoon

ASCs: Xue wen, Wei yang

SLs: He Ping, Yu Ning, Ching Xing, Gina, Clement, Hubert, Jun Wei, Shuoren

Librarians: Joel, Joelle

Incomming Committee:

President: Joel

Vice Pres: Vanessa

AVP: Levonne

Treasurer: Rae

Secretary: Joelle

SCs: Jun Wei, Wei Yang

ASCs: Xue wen, Glenvicia

SLs: Boon Fang, Xu Xi, Ha Nee, yuan fang, Clement, Hubert, Jiang Xu

Librarians: Si Ying, Jeremy

Joel, I've already written everything I wanted to say to you in the 18 letters LOL. Happy reading!

Vanessa, I have high hopes for you. I have lots of faith in you too. Please know that we love you as much as we love the rest of your batch. You guys are all my dearest dearest dearest juniors :D

Boonfang, Thanks for your toblerone and your letter! Im so sorry i didn't get you anything T_T and i'm sorry about the PT thing hahaha but it's kinda necessary ._. and you know now that it's much slacker than the seniors' already right! SEE YOU IN RVCS NEXT YEAR <3>

Yuanfang, hanee, heyyyy my alto juniors! I havent always been around with the section to help out much, Im sorry. Please do your best as the SLs because I had to fight pretty hard with the teachers for you two! I know you'll do fine as SLs so im not worried, but I promise to always be there for you if you ever need help ^^ AWESOME ALTOS ALMIGHTY!

Hubert, heyyyyy. i've written everything I wanted to tell you in the letter too. I'm kind of glad you almost cried while reading it, which means my feelings got through to you. I teared while writing it too, and i'm guilty because I could have done something to change it, but I didn't. But please remember I really do love you <:

rvc committee 2010/2011, jiayou!

Melancholy.

Im finally done with the video. and the presents too.

except for 2 letters, which i'll write in school ltr.

i'm spending so much time on this im not even doing my homework! gosh, i've like over a thousand words to check up on and bio and chem to revise for zzz. Cant wait for this week to be over. Im just hoping that Bio will be postponed or sth ><>

I kinda screwed up the chinese test today.. didnt know what to write for the ling gan thingy. grahhh. cx shuoren calvin desheng etc PONNED CHINESE REMEDIAL! im the only one who was so guai, never pon. CAUSE IM NOT IN IT IN THE FIRST PLACE >D hahahahahaha

but gosh, it's crazy. write one essay every single remedial lesson, i'd rather die ):

zuowen is my weakness :D

and now, even lang arts essay is a chore ><

walked around with cx today and she asked me what i thought about him. I don't know, he's just a friend, nothing more, maybe less. i don't knowwwwwww.

Handover in 12 hours.

Starting to be glad that it'd all be over soon~^^

then i can focus on OSS.

The Devil does exist.

AMANDAＣＨＡＮISＰＲＯＣＲＡＳＴＩＮＡＴＩＮＧTOOＭＵＣＨ！

argh.

I spent so much time on the handover gift but it's not even that nice ): it's meaningful IF he gets the meaning behind the words.. otherwise, it'd just be a waste. JOEL PLEASE BE SMART ENOUGH! :D

this is what i have to finish today:

The Right Word Pg. 7-13

Read Newsweek! <3

Lang arts essay? (maybe not)

HANDOVER GIFT -.-

revise chemchemchem.

Yeap! there're like, 4 tests next week.

1. chinese reading test - monday

2. bio test (human repro, genetics, variation) - tues/thurs

3. chem (organic chem) - friday

4. chem spa - tentative

I thought physics spa was relatively easy since i totally had too much time and even fell asleep during the test. Let's hope my result reflects my confidence.

I got accepted into OSS! And I did my first translation assignment on thursday :D I'm really happy yaknow, it's damn cool to do things like this. I want to be a good translator in the future :>

anway, i've decided to join the senior choir. I was hesitant at first, because I don't know if i want to continue in the same cca for like, 11 years when my future wont be anything music related. But then I realise it doesn't necessarily have to be. Curriculum is already hectic enough, my cca ought to be a place where i find some peace and enjoy myself right?

I still like music a lot. And I like singing a lot too. So i'm just going to ignore other problems like *some* people hating me in the choir and stay in there. I'll learn to get over things like this. I'll survive :D

Actually, it's really after Shaoxing that I made up my mind. I just know i'll regret my decision if I really left choir. far too many memories in my 4 years here. good ones, bad ones, we've all weathered it as a choir. And this's also the place where I matured, the place that allowed me to grow and gain so much confidence. to the extent that i'm not scared of going on stage now, it's more excitement than anxiety.

Yeap. I'll grow even more the next two years. In the mean time, no relationships allowed! FOCUS ON GROWING UP FIRST YOU DUMMY.

Amanda is awesome :D

The Joy.

I AM BACK FROM CHINA!

CONGRATULATIONS TO RVC AND RVCS FOR GETTING GOLD IV AND GOLD II RESPECTIVELY!

WE ROCK!

<3

handover on thurs! ):
two more days as rvc's president.