A day for liars.

Happy Teacher's Day Eve!

Celebrations were alright today, didn't feel as happy as I ought to.

Miss choo's danced to RING DING DONG, and it was AWESOME, for a teacher!

I know, im getting lazier and lazier and lazier in updating this place, but there really isn't much going on with my life that's worth mentioning. And i'm determined to only talk about positive, happy stuff and not those emo crapzsczsxs that i sometimes feel.

THEREFORE, there's nothing to talk about.

WHICH MEANS, my life's filled with misery.

BUT, that's the way life is.

BECAUSE, misery is the natural state of equilibrium, and happiness is but an ephemeral disequilibrium.


september's in another 8 hours! I've always loved this month for obvious reasons, but i love this month also because autumn is at its peak at this time of the year :)

Yeap, and the upcoming playlist will be the cantonese songs I used to listen to when I was younger, mostly by Twins. They were really famous when I was in Primary School, so yeaaaaa. I can't remember the songs by other singers, though there were quite a lot which were nice ):

Braindead.

Hi.

I started on my mission to be a better student.

Okay, there wasn't alot of homework to finish, more like lots of tests to prepare for. I'm so afraid I won't remember anything the moment I look at the essay question tmr, even though I spent so much time preparing for it too. Which is why I'm gonna look at my compiled notes (which i finally finished in the library today) again to make sure it stays.

I read through DC circuit and Practical electricity, quite easy but it's hard to remember everything when my brain's so filled with information on the Arts. Literally an information overload, gosh ):

Went back to visit the junior choir today, the year 2s sounded so out of tune, it hurt my ear listening to them. then suddenly a ray of hope struck through, I heard such a solid and in tune voice, looked up and realised it's Glenvicia. LOL. It was better after the year 3s and 2s joined in I guess, but Karimatanu was quite screwed imo.

GIOIA. don't know whether to go or not. it just has to be on that day eh? HAISSS. oh well.

Went to the library again. ms joined me a while after, and jx and friends were two tables down. finished my physics (besides magnetic effect of current) and pangsehed ms for homeeee <3>

Thursday night movie?

Friday after celebrations movie?

HOWHOWHOW GOT CID T_T

Melancholy.

Im finally done with the video. and the presents too.

except for 2 letters, which i'll write in school ltr.

i'm spending so much time on this im not even doing my homework! gosh, i've like over a thousand words to check up on and bio and chem to revise for zzz. Cant wait for this week to be over. Im just hoping that Bio will be postponed or sth ><>

I kinda screwed up the chinese test today.. didnt know what to write for the ling gan thingy. grahhh. cx shuoren calvin desheng etc PONNED CHINESE REMEDIAL! im the only one who was so guai, never pon. CAUSE IM NOT IN IT IN THE FIRST PLACE >D hahahahahaha

but gosh, it's crazy. write one essay every single remedial lesson, i'd rather die ):

zuowen is my weakness :D

and now, even lang arts essay is a chore ><

walked around with cx today and she asked me what i thought about him. I don't know, he's just a friend, nothing more, maybe less. i don't knowwwwwww.

Handover in 12 hours.

Starting to be glad that it'd all be over soon~^^

then i can focus on OSS.

The Devil does exist.

AMANDAＣＨＡＮISＰＲＯＣＲＡＳＴＩＮＡＴＩＮＧTOOＭＵＣＨ！

argh.

I spent so much time on the handover gift but it's not even that nice ): it's meaningful IF he gets the meaning behind the words.. otherwise, it'd just be a waste. JOEL PLEASE BE SMART ENOUGH! :D

this is what i have to finish today:

The Right Word Pg. 7-13

Read Newsweek! <3

Lang arts essay? (maybe not)

HANDOVER GIFT -.-

revise chemchemchem.

Yeap! there're like, 4 tests next week.

1. chinese reading test - monday

2. bio test (human repro, genetics, variation) - tues/thurs

3. chem (organic chem) - friday

4. chem spa - tentative

I thought physics spa was relatively easy since i totally had too much time and even fell asleep during the test. Let's hope my result reflects my confidence.

I got accepted into OSS! And I did my first translation assignment on thursday :D I'm really happy yaknow, it's damn cool to do things like this. I want to be a good translator in the future :>

anway, i've decided to join the senior choir. I was hesitant at first, because I don't know if i want to continue in the same cca for like, 11 years when my future wont be anything music related. But then I realise it doesn't necessarily have to be. Curriculum is already hectic enough, my cca ought to be a place where i find some peace and enjoy myself right?

I still like music a lot. And I like singing a lot too. So i'm just going to ignore other problems like *some* people hating me in the choir and stay in there. I'll learn to get over things like this. I'll survive :D

Actually, it's really after Shaoxing that I made up my mind. I just know i'll regret my decision if I really left choir. far too many memories in my 4 years here. good ones, bad ones, we've all weathered it as a choir. And this's also the place where I matured, the place that allowed me to grow and gain so much confidence. to the extent that i'm not scared of going on stage now, it's more excitement than anxiety.

Yeap. I'll grow even more the next two years. In the mean time, no relationships allowed! FOCUS ON GROWING UP FIRST YOU DUMMY.

Amanda is awesome :D

We'll have no regrets.

tomorrow's the day!

i forgot to post this yesterday, but i'm starting not to look forward to lang arts because of the topic. we're on FAMILY now, and it's so darn irritating reading those articles and watching those videos about parents and fatherhood and blah. it's a natural reaction, i can't help it.

school was pretty cool today, though i was sleepy half the time ): got caught by mrs llm during CID today zzzz. siancscxzcxzczcsxx. i barely survived the rest of the mass lecture. anyway, WE ARE EXEMPTED FROM MATHS TEST! i think mr ong decided not to do it after my scary sms HAHA.

today's practice was a little on the bad side. ms tham got angry with us. i feel bad, cause i couldn't sing properly. i was so much softer today and i can't concentrate either ):

i got to talk to him today, abit happy lah hahaha. i still remember his number after so long! gosh. call me dumb, but i'm damn happy when i see his name appear on my phone when it rings LOL. though it's just a liiiiiiitle heartbreaking to know that we wont ever be more than friends :x anyway, he wished me goodluck for sx :D

oh yes and john too, he pons and everything, but he never forgets to wish us good luck hahaha. SO NICE RIGHT SO NICE RIGHT! :D

and i'm happy today because of another thing. ADELINEEEEEEEEEE <3 yeap! she's my first buddy ever in rvc, and though we hardly even talk, and people think she's scary, i like/admire/respect her a hellll lot :D she's really nice, and cool, and pretteh, and scary in a good way~ and she wished us good luck! it was just one sentence, BUT I WAS SO HAPPY.

yeap! so for the sake of these people who wished and hoped that we'd do well, I WILL DO MY BESTEST BEST! and even though i have the feeling we won't do that well on stage, and we might seriously not win anything, i'll still (try) not to cry, since that's what we promised ms tham too.

maybe.. one sms from him after the competition would cheer me up considerably? :D

gosh, now i sound like those lovesick juniors that i have -_-
BUT NO, I'M NOT LOVESICK.

Grey skies..

how did merwyn find this place?

...


okay.


we had morning run this morning, with altos ♥
it was only 4 rounds though.. and a little bit of core. followed by sectionals, where we fixed the actions. a little embarrassing to sing since people are staring -.-

Lessons were alright, everything passed pretty quickly, partly because i was doing illegal things during lesson time. like doing chinese homework during maths and physics, and not paying much attention during chinese ): but i must totally applaud myself for having completed all my zuowenSSS even though i said i wont do them :x ha, the first step to a better meee.

[sidenote] there're so many people wanting to join tennis! o: but almost all the girls don't know who the mysterious cca leader is -.- i suppose those who want to join can come find me :D LOL i'll be their messenger ^^ [/sidenote]

anyway, now that i think of it, i'm not entirely sure if i want to have the maths test after we come back. I mean, it's such a chore having to stay back for a stupid test. this just goes to show how there's never a good time for tests zzz so i've decided, the ruckus i've caused was unnecessary and really unhelpful ): this doesn't mean i'm happy with having the test in shaoxing :D

i found out about something that's pretty bothersome.. totally hoping it's not real, or it'd be super awkward from now on zzz. but they're acting really childishly recently, abit funnnnneh.

listening to;
everytime we touch - cascada

old song, but still a beautiful one.

I AM SO PISSED OFF.

HOW CAN WE HAVE MATHS TEST DURING THE SHAO XING TRIP!

THEY'RE UNREASONABLE, INHUMANE, HORRIBLE, HORRIBLE, IDIOTIC, UN-UNDERSTANDING AND DID I MENTION UNREASONABLE?

I wouldn't mind if it's some language paper, but it's maths! IT'S NOT SOMETHING YOU CAN TAKE WITHOUT PREPARING.

maybe maths geniuses like xumeng and chingxing and everyone else can, but i can't! it's just unfair. and i totally didn't have time to revise for it these past few days, and now they do this to us!

it's not JUST MATHS. maths's the subject i need to pull up my results on esp for this term. HOW CAN I DO THAT WHEN THEY'RE DOING THIS.

Can't they just wait till we get back? like seriously.

argh. i'm so frustrated and pissed off now.