The Devil does exist.

AMANDAＣＨＡＮISＰＲＯＣＲＡＳＴＩＮＡＴＩＮＧTOOＭＵＣＨ！

argh.

I spent so much time on the handover gift but it's not even that nice ): it's meaningful IF he gets the meaning behind the words.. otherwise, it'd just be a waste. JOEL PLEASE BE SMART ENOUGH! :D

this is what i have to finish today:

The Right Word Pg. 7-13

Read Newsweek! <3

Lang arts essay? (maybe not)

HANDOVER GIFT -.-

revise chemchemchem.

Yeap! there're like, 4 tests next week.

1. chinese reading test - monday

2. bio test (human repro, genetics, variation) - tues/thurs

3. chem (organic chem) - friday

4. chem spa - tentative

I thought physics spa was relatively easy since i totally had too much time and even fell asleep during the test. Let's hope my result reflects my confidence.

I got accepted into OSS! And I did my first translation assignment on thursday :D I'm really happy yaknow, it's damn cool to do things like this. I want to be a good translator in the future :>

anway, i've decided to join the senior choir. I was hesitant at first, because I don't know if i want to continue in the same cca for like, 11 years when my future wont be anything music related. But then I realise it doesn't necessarily have to be. Curriculum is already hectic enough, my cca ought to be a place where i find some peace and enjoy myself right?

I still like music a lot. And I like singing a lot too. So i'm just going to ignore other problems like *some* people hating me in the choir and stay in there. I'll learn to get over things like this. I'll survive :D

Actually, it's really after Shaoxing that I made up my mind. I just know i'll regret my decision if I really left choir. far too many memories in my 4 years here. good ones, bad ones, we've all weathered it as a choir. And this's also the place where I matured, the place that allowed me to grow and gain so much confidence. to the extent that i'm not scared of going on stage now, it's more excitement than anxiety.

Yeap. I'll grow even more the next two years. In the mean time, no relationships allowed! FOCUS ON GROWING UP FIRST YOU DUMMY.

Amanda is awesome :D

The Joy.

I AM BACK FROM CHINA!

CONGRATULATIONS TO RVC AND RVCS FOR GETTING GOLD IV AND GOLD II RESPECTIVELY!

WE ROCK!

<3

handover on thurs! ):
two more days as rvc's president.

We'll have no regrets.

tomorrow's the day!

i forgot to post this yesterday, but i'm starting not to look forward to lang arts because of the topic. we're on FAMILY now, and it's so darn irritating reading those articles and watching those videos about parents and fatherhood and blah. it's a natural reaction, i can't help it.

school was pretty cool today, though i was sleepy half the time ): got caught by mrs llm during CID today zzzz. siancscxzcxzczcsxx. i barely survived the rest of the mass lecture. anyway, WE ARE EXEMPTED FROM MATHS TEST! i think mr ong decided not to do it after my scary sms HAHA.

today's practice was a little on the bad side. ms tham got angry with us. i feel bad, cause i couldn't sing properly. i was so much softer today and i can't concentrate either ):

i got to talk to him today, abit happy lah hahaha. i still remember his number after so long! gosh. call me dumb, but i'm damn happy when i see his name appear on my phone when it rings LOL. though it's just a liiiiiiitle heartbreaking to know that we wont ever be more than friends :x anyway, he wished me goodluck for sx :D

oh yes and john too, he pons and everything, but he never forgets to wish us good luck hahaha. SO NICE RIGHT SO NICE RIGHT! :D

and i'm happy today because of another thing. ADELINEEEEEEEEEE <3 yeap! she's my first buddy ever in rvc, and though we hardly even talk, and people think she's scary, i like/admire/respect her a hellll lot :D she's really nice, and cool, and pretteh, and scary in a good way~ and she wished us good luck! it was just one sentence, BUT I WAS SO HAPPY.

yeap! so for the sake of these people who wished and hoped that we'd do well, I WILL DO MY BESTEST BEST! and even though i have the feeling we won't do that well on stage, and we might seriously not win anything, i'll still (try) not to cry, since that's what we promised ms tham too.

maybe.. one sms from him after the competition would cheer me up considerably? :D

gosh, now i sound like those lovesick juniors that i have -_-
BUT NO, I'M NOT LOVESICK.

The First Post

Hello, I've finally decided to create a new blog, and gave up on my private one. Was wondering if I should make this blog known to others, and decided against it. If they chance upon it, then toooo bad.

It's a bit late, and extremely stupid of me to post this now, but still..

RESOLUTION FOR SEMESTER TWO:
1. Do well in Shaoxing!
2. Put in more effort to complete my homework.. or at least TRY TO.
3. Minimise time spent fangirling
4. Make a good decision in choosing the comm. don't regret it, like how the year 5s regretted theirs.
5. FULL EXEMPTION FROM EOYs.
6. Splurge less
7. Be a nicer person (?)

All the above requires lots of self-discipline, not exactly sure if it'll turn out well D:

As the day of the competition nears, memories of italy come flooding back. It was when Hazel and Weikai were still in rvc, and when we were the youngest in the choir. We had nothing to worry about besides singing out parts well. The time on stage, on the bus and the plane, shopping, sightseeing, in the hotel, playing cards, all of which are dear memories.

2 years later, we're now the oldest in the junior choir. From an SL to (reluctantly) a president, we've all been forced to grow up and shoulder much more responsibility. This year's trip is a lot more different.

The people. We had 32 the previous trip, and now there's 72. That's more than twice the number. It was easy to manage with a small group of people and much easier to have fun, which was why italy was memorable. Which is why, I've to constantly remind myself that we're going there for a competition.

The place. Italy --> China. Europe --> Asia. Self-explanatory.

The time. Next week is when all the term tests start coming in, and for me who's aiming for full exemption, it's risky.

I get totally turned off when i think of all these, but there'd still be this unexplainable excitement in my heart every once in a while. When I think about it, it's my turn to lead! I've to lead a whole bunch of animals (which'll really test my patience), but this would be the last event I'd be in charge of. The last thing I could do for the Choir. Before I step down. I'd have to remain positive and see through to this right?

I've grown to accept my position.
I feel a sense of pride towards the junior choir.
Even though many of them likes the senior choir more, I like the junior choir. Because it is the one i'm leading. the one that witnessed all my failures, the one that suffered under my wrath, and it's where my committee is. The committee that appeared so screwed up, and the same committee that stood united during march camp and made me feel proud to be their leader.

I don't want to leave.