Why am I sad?

Been months since I cried over something that isn't related to anime.

Why do I feel so sad?

If I told anyone, they'd think it's something really insignificant and that there's nothing worth being sad over. Which is why I don't really want to tell anyone because they won't understand how important it is to me. They'd think it's just me being, well, me.

Not that I've anyone to tell this to anyway, wouldn't be here otherwise.

Okay it's 12.30am now and my cousin just called to ask if I wanna go out for a spin. It was as if he read my mind that I needed a breather. But cmon, we're not in a movie and we all know it, you can't just get out at midnight, and get cheered up and be all happy again. My mum didn't let me out. Even though she used to because they were my cousins.

And she doesn't even know how much this would have meant to me.

I feel like crap now, and I don't even know why anymore.